February 2010
Why now
i went out last night. i think i said less than 100 words. Why now.
Why is it now i cant stop thinking
Im usually the most empty minded and bird brained person.
i just feel uncomfortable in my own skin
i just feel awkward
i feel like im 13 again.
i stutter
i sweat
i swear
i.. i dont know
i feel not good.
and i have work to do.
i want the money, the money, the cars, the clothes, the...
sometimes
sometimes i lay awake and try to pinpoint where it went wrong
sometimes i blame you
sometimes i blame me
sometimes i dont even believe it happened
sometimes i wish i could go back
sometimes i wish i never met you
sometimes i wish i was the person you wanted me to be
sometimes i think you were wrong, i was wrong, we were wrong to begin with
i dont know. Sometimes i just think of you.
i...
3
3 days left.
i sign up for classes tomorrow.
so today i was in the lockerroom at 24 and i finished showering and my glasses were wet. I thought i saw mack siu in the lockeroom. so i gave him a slap on the back, it wasnt light enough because if its too light it seems gay. not too hard cuz then it would seem like i was trying to five star him. But i hit him a little harder than medium because,...
3
3 days left. well itll be 3 in about 30 minutes.
korea round 2. im prepared, i know what to expect. bring it. this time i wont gain weight. this time i wont fail at life.
this time i wont forget who i am.
oh, i had a piece of chocolate today. i hella didnt like it. so i ate a melon bar instead. i loved it. VERY NICE
also i was getting an eye exam at kaiser, and the lady asked me if i sang. i...
bong
Together
when youre living with someone its only normal shit goes missing
whether you misplace it an cant dig through your roommates side of the room, you left it somewhere and your roommate took it accidently, or your roommate just took it. or maybe you just lost it, but it cant possibly be your fault
anyway i realized the first thing to go
are socks.
Cropdusted
today is sunday
i run on sawyer trail
its packed on sundays
i hate it
i cant run naked(im kidding)
i was running and was about to pass this kinda heavy set fellow
but he farted
he lifted his leg and did the shake thing
and as i apporached him
i smelled it
i hope i dont get pink eye
im gonna change my contacts just in case
that was my sunday, how is yours going